Monday, March 2, 2015
Concerns Sharing My Story + Starting A Monthly Support Post!
You all continue to open my eyes to how amazing people can be. So many of you have taken my survey, and overall the majority of you want me to do some more posts about eating disorders, and do a monthly anonymous support post! I think that is so awesome that you guys want to learn more and spread awareness. The consensus is that there should be more about eating disorders in blogland, so let's do that guys! So today I want to share with you how you can submit stories, thoughts, etc. to the monthly support post, and also my thoughts and fears about me talking about my own eating disorder (because I think it's important to share).
In general I feel like there needs to be more support for people with eating disorders. I go to college, and you would think there would be something on campus in terms of support, but there is nothing. Even the counseling center turns people with eating disorders away! There are also those who have never opened up about their eating disorder, who need to talk about it, but want to stay anonymous. That is why I'm going to do the monthly post! I'm thinking of it like a support group. You can submit your story, struggles, victories, thoughts, or questions in regards to eating disorders here ANONYMOUSLY, or send me an email. It's completely up to you! For those of you who send me an email, I will not share your name unless you ask me to (maybe those of you who also discuss eating disorders on your blog?). I will do the post on the 20th of every month, share stories, discuss questions, and talk about how to overcome whatever you all submit to me. I'm going to see if there is a way I can do anonymous comments on that post, so that people can join in the discussion!
Now that I've gone over that, I feel like I need to be open and honest with you all about my concerns. I honestly thought I would write that one post about having an eating disorder, and never talk about it again on the blog. Announcing it for anyone to read is terrifying, and also puts me in a tricky position. As I said before, I am doing well right now, but I'm not fully recovered and probably won't be for a long time. Sometimes it's hard to stay on my healthy path (especially this time of year), and I don't want to feel like I have to pretend I'm okay so I can write a post, if I'm actually not (at the time). So besides the monthly post, there may be times when I don't post anything about eating disorders, because I don't feel like I can at the time. I hope you all can understand that. This is something so deeply personal and quite frankly scary to talk about, I need to take it one step at a time.
My other concern is over what I will and will not share. I haven't decided if I'm going to share my "classification" yet (meaning anorexic, bulimic, etc) because that is just a smidge too personal and I don't know how I feel about it. I also don't want to share too much because I'm afraid it will give ideas to people. If someone is on the brink of having an eating disorder, I don't want to be that person who tells them how, if that makes sense. I'm probably just being paranoid, but that's just how I feel!
Anyway, thanks for letting me be open with you guys, and for the continuing love and support (pictured above are some of the many nice things you all have said). It's truly incredible! Don't forget to submit whatever you would like to say here for the monthly post! Also, all of my eating disorder posts are going to be a series, and I need to come up with a name! If you have any suggestions for the series name, PLEASE leave them below!