I've been wanting to do this post for a while now, I just haven't known quite how to approach it. Everyone's situation is different, but this is my experience.
I have anxiety. Anxiety is something that I've dealt with for almost my entire life, yet somehow I let it go unnoticed. That doesn't even make sense right? I'll explain.
I've always been high-strung. I lean towards perfectionism, and I worry about the tiniest little things. They used to even keep me up at night. When I was younger, I would get random panic attacks, but I could always control my breathing and work thought it, so after a little counseling, it was decided that medication wasn't necessary to keep it all at bay. Compared to my Mom's anxiety, I thought I was perfectly fine and normal.
I've always been skeptical about medications. I'm not sure why, maybe it's the stigma that surrounds them, but I've never wanted to go on any type of anxiety medication because I knew I could control it on my own. This year scared me because my anxiety was out of my control.
It's life changing. I mean that in every sense of the way. With the tiny dose that I was given, I started noticing that I was a lot less high strung. Little things that most people would ignore, no longer kept me up at night. I actually got some sleep! I no longer had random panic attacks, and my stress level went down because I wasn't constantly trying to change the past and fix everything.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not a la-di-da flake by any means. I still like to do my best, be the best I can be, and fix what I can. The difference is it doesn't haunt me anymore.
I'm happy. Now that I'm not constantly focused on worrying about things or being perfect, I find happiness in little places. I don't feel a sense of overwhelming dread if I'm going to not be the first person in the classroom. When things don't go my way, I work through them instead of letting it all add up into stress.
As I last note, I want to say that I'm absolutely not saying that if you have anxiety you should go on medication. It's a very personal decision that a doctor should help you make. It's not the only option, and there are so many degrees of anxiety that it's best to do what works for you. This is just what has worked for me.